When I was a younger, maybe 13-14 years old, I was a very sensitive and shy player. I lacked determination and passion on the pitch, which ultimately led to many poor performances early in my career. I was constantly afraid I would mess up in games although my technique on the ball was always very good as a center back.
Why are people so scared of failure? When did we start believing failing is bad? You may respond with the obvious answers - it makes me feel unworthy or hopeless. It prevents me from getting what I want. It moves me further away from what I desire. These all may be accurate answers in your current mindset, but they are the furthest from the truth.